Wednesday, February 18, 2009
reluctant..
ok.. i finally finished my resume and sent it..
went jobstreet and submitted 1..let me tks auntie mimi for helping with the resume..oh shes my lifesaver..
ANyway..oh crap..i said i sent 1 ..and i realli did..after tat my whole mind js went blank and gradually drifted away..looking at all the positions available to me..oh shucks..quite afew..but not much tat interested me..i say i want do admin..then i see see look look..imagine myself on a deskbound job i wonder will i realli like it mah?i donno >.<"' haiz....
Suddenly i wished i did study harder last time..but oh well dont wanna tok about it..all i can say is tat not doing well wasnt js cant on myself..i got lots more pp to blame..sheesh..too bad.. its all in the past..
i wished i finished my nafa and informatics studies laast time..at least now i can have more options...Looking at the available jobs to me wasnt realli attractive for me..i wished i can be a designer or IT specialist or wat now..argh..fuck myself =.=
Last nite after midnite mingjie drove over my place..we went for supper at jalan kayu..its been so long since i last went..it reminded me of only 1 person which i was the only reason y i went there last time..hmm been so long..after tat we went OCC to pa billard..hehe i won by shooting in the last 3balls..oh high sia..lolz,after tat we went back to my place's 888 kopitiam there to la tea..chit chat bout random stuffs..did tok bout work and studies..i said i nua until limit liao..sibei sian..every day wake up donn odo wat..everyday is the same..surf net.pa game. eat. sleep..KAOZ...i'm not totally complaining la!i love it lor..its such a great rest i'm having now since my last sucky job..haiz..
But money dont grow on tress..and my life wont be fullfilling if i do it for the rest of my life la..haiz..gonna move on eventually...
cRAP..work wat?do i want to work?go back study?..ne..i got no motivation..unless maybe if got pp study with me maybe things will be diff..argh..another excuse maybe for myself =.=" i;m js lazy and escaping reality..i want a job.. i want to move out..
i am lost...yawnz...
my room freaking hot these past nites..donno is it i pa game..then all the gaget generating huge heat source again... even plantffy is gonna die sooner or later i think ...kaoz..think i will become a rasin 1 day oso...all dried up..js like my "well" which i am digging during these jobless times...fook...
end of todays ranting..kaoz..gd nite to myself../.
luvYellow;12:28 AM
