Yawnz..now is ard 12,i just woke up.last nite slept at 4 again as usual.nowadays whenever i blog is realli quite boring topics..nuthing exciting has been going on in life wor..actualli i wonder how mani pp like me always zombie slp very late hor.. i only know shufen is 1 of the member in my zombie group..haha..
Nxt week got the silly cust service course thats gonna start,at toa payoh hub 9-6pm..boring..i'm so reluctant to go actualli..but its free and "IT MIGHT" help me find a job nxt time.or js make my resume seems nicer a tiny weeny bit more.sianz..
Anyway i'm playing a RPG game called sacred 2 recently.yesterday even tried voicechat during ingame with some forum frens.very fun.coz can kpkb online.haha. Take a look below huh at the video to have a better idea.
some new gundams i boughts.the gal 1 is special.
tis the the xbox 360 u can win now if u drink btl of coke zeros..but i still havent ganna any zzz..nice hor the design..
this is a app on my iphone..its like lights moving ard a black screen with yr fingers controlling it.can make all softs of nice patterns..its called "spawnlite" for the free version which u can try out.iphone got so mani new apps releasing everyday.love my iphone,its a great phone esp when u use it to access the internet.
luvYellow;12:46 PM
Saturday, May 16, 2009
sleepless in woodlands...(pun intended)
Its been awhile since i blog..guess is the same with every1 anyway..quiet blogging days for every1 huh..recently not everything been going smoothly for me i feel..still the same..jobless, nuaing at home..oh ya.nxt week is 5mths aniversary liao..hip hip horray?Anyway i'll be attending a short course..some customer service de la..go lor.. 9 days nia..free anyway,and i get $4 per hr..IR marina sand actualli called me tat day,asking whether i was interested for a dealer position mah.. haha stright away say no tks..i realli hate numbers la..ask me count mentally whole day i will go gila..my ideai job is to look at a computer screen for 8 hrs.. not cards or dices...
Been quite a while since i met up with frens oso. no mood la.. No 1 seems to have the heart to organise oso.anyway even if there is i oso no heart go..no job no money.. feel very pek che de la.Maybe i think i;m just jealous of fren's which i think have a better life then me right now..haha i'm feeeling bitchy ya..Oh well.. might not be true la.i'm still happy right now i guess to some point..there are days which i nv think of job hunting at all,then spend whole day surf net, pa game..time pass very fast also.These days i slp at least 4am earliest..power right..haha..i oso seldom eat supper lor.. gonna get back my slim figure of my past soon..lolz.wasted,y arent i a gal.. then i can go overseas be those supermodels tat looks like toothpicks..wahahah..earn lots of money and be glamourous to some extent..haha..
Argh.. last nite i nv slpt.. due to many factors...tummy pain,room damm stuffy(as usual) and the corridor is damm bright..i cant slp la..in the end i spent the whole nite playing and downloading games with my iphone..hoot all the way until gingy woke up at 630 then i accompany her go jurong east mrt where she changed train to dover for work..my tummy was killing me all the way when i was going home..shsssh..must had been the chicken curry pizza i had ytd..too spicy..oh ya.. 1 meal per day diet ok.. cannot 1 go stuff food into my tiny tummy.. =/
These days i feel lost touch to the world, only whenever i see gingy then i feel i'm alive..arbo i feel i dont exist..haha , donno y..
Alright i'll just stop here.. wanna say more but not realli into the mood...here are some pics which gingy took for me tat day b4 a movie.. at marina sq.i caught some stuffs for her from a unique ufo catcher ^^v
tis was the machine,idea was to move a circle INTO another circle..look at number "4",see the circle?if u manage to go throught it nicely u will push down the number board then the door to the prize will open..not easy..the measurement js nice 1..hehe..look at the bottom num "6" prize. i got it oso after tis pic was taken.the 1 i'm holding oso from tis machine..hee loved my new fluffy and the 1 piece tissue box.
i got both the prizes after a total of ard 6 tries.. b4 tat me and gingy saw a lady try 1st time get liao..we nearly fainted..so lihai..haha.. tis is cfm better then those other normal ufo catchers..sg version all bluff money de.. in taiwan i 1 try can catch 1 lor..bler...
luvYellow;9:14 AM
Friday, May 8, 2009
what am i doing?
Oh here i am blogging again.i havent even brushed my teeth,i js woke up,it freaking noon 2plus zzz..alright i slept at 4 in the morning again..listening to norah johns and can still feel pek che.i was looking at jobstreet again..frustrated.. U all ever watched "P.S, i love u" i think i'm gonna act out part of it soon.sheesh..near the ending..if u got watch u'll know..maybe then i can find some new inspiration wat to do with my life..i dont even know wat i wanna do the nxt day i wake up actualli.anyway tks all frens for recommending jobs..not i hiam but i realli hope to get a gd 1 after my last 1.. i think i'm getting picky liao..haiz..who doesnt want the best in life huh, y i nv study? y ? oh i hate my dad for that..long story.zzz... i was a gd student in pri, a average in sec, a lousy 1 any time after sec 4... i nv tok to my dad these days.. waste my breath i think. y couldnt i gone to a normal tiertary insitutie like NORMAL people?i always wanted to go to a JC and then uni...OR at least a poly.. IN THE END I FLUNKED MY FUCKING O LVLS>.oh all tks to myself..EVEN AFTER retaking my o i still failed..WTF.tat 2nd and 3rd time i can only blame myself.. i blame myself for not benig brave enuf and got too easily affected by problems at home.coming to tis i'm starting to think its a mistake moving in with my mum..not that i dont wish to stay with her..but prehapes the more indenpendent environment would had made me more stronger now..more decisive..i wanna get a 8-5 job, study part time.get a cert.get a job i love,move into my own place..IS IT THAT DAMM HARD?.... damm...i've grown so weary of everything..i think i'm living in self denial these days..sheesh..i DONT want to move on with life.. god knows y.. coz even i dont know...
luvYellow;2:21 PM
Thursday, May 7, 2009
fuga
zz.. tis morning i woke up feeling i've js been knocked over by a lorry..shd been the whisky i had ytd.my hair is in a mess and i feel so pek che i wanna kill some1.here i am having no life at home surfing new and donno wat i wanna do again.saw a tv ad bout the new orchard ion recuiting pp,then i went to a webbie and register.tat all..i dont have any mood to look for job tis 2 days.everything dont realli seems to go right.suddenly i feel wanting the past again...what shd i do today?maybe i shd go take a jog or wat..but the freaking sun so hot now.zzz..maybe tonite i will put on my running shoes and go run ard the block few rounds..been ages since i excercise.maybe i can run until damm shag and have a gd nite slp.5mths liao..in another week it will be 5mths without a job for me..horray .. =,=" wtf... "i'm poor be happy" i wonder if i still believe my own words mah..maybe,maybe not. i wanna go ktv and have wine.but tat damm long think he must be slping again.zzz.the rest busy or not interested.yawnz..FUCKING SIAN. When is enuf ENUF?every1 got their own gauges huh..''in a quantity or degree that answers a purpose or satisfies a need or desire" Sometimes i dont even know my own purpose,how to know others?the 1 thing i hate about myself is my own uncertainty.i wonder if i'll ever change that.currently i dont have much desires, needs prehapes there is.small to big, but even those aint realli nuthing.so i can only say i'm LOST now? Am i a better person after the last 26 yrs of my life?i wonder...wat do u think?i tink i've changed..yes..but isit enuf?most prob not..it might be enuf for 1 but not for the other.Oh i dont know wat i'm saying anymore..js ranting and rantings..i dont even make sense to myself liao... i feel a 2nd lorry hitting me in the face..yawnz...i promised to learn the guiter and get a bike license sometime in life in the past..both which i didnt realised..i feel like shit whenever i thought of those actualli..but i've put it in the past and dont wanna think bout them.coz wats past and past and there isnt the need and desire anymore..shall hate myself my not realising those promises.. Am i a romantic guy?wat do i think?i think i'm a pale version of my past..prehapes everything is crashing down on me these days..still i got to pick up myself of course..but scars will always be there..diff gals rate romance differently,how bout u?do u think its possible to go through a relationship with some1 else with zero romance?i think its unbearable for most pp..everything will become so dull and colorless.1 have to , no , 2 have to be active in tis aspect actualli..But i believe if 2 person likes or love each other, they'll be able to find romance in the smallest of situations..tats wat we see from grey-haired couples just from them holding hands walking togather down a road.. read the recent post on ++'s blog..its meaningful,showed me another side of a belief which i believe.Well..still it varies from case by case biase bah..but it do teach 1 why mourning aint realli tat bad too..it lets u get back some of the old self which u lost during the time where u put everything aside for a relationship.But still scars will always be there, but then again it makes us all a better person.. i wonder for evey r/s u throw yr oldself then pick up again..tis process there gonna be some limits for people..a limit when 1 just grows tired of picking up the old self and forgets everything and prehapes be a totally new person..i think tat will be a nice alternative too... Oh crap my ear got something on i tink..the day we came down from genting my ear hurt the whole way down..till now my ears at times still have some weird "block-unblock" feeling. Alright i donno wat i've been writing the past 15mins time...better stop if not u all are gonna read m ore rubbish..so long..till nxt time...
luvYellow;2:17 PM
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
shareholder of Genting...
Alright went to genting with a few gd frens,Junlong,raymond,liming & jiajia..1st time we went overseas togather and we all had great fren..Too bad that we all lost money there..haha..ray joked that the alphabet "O" on the name board of the resort was his..not i think "G" is oso mind liao zzz..It was my 1st time at a casino and was amazed by how many types of gambling games there was..spent most of my times on the jackpot machines..i did ganna once la..but too bad is small jackpot.I think i played almost all of the jackpot machines available there liao lor.. Ok other then tat we had nice food there of course..we oso went bowling!i was nv gd at it but the rest taught me well and i did quite ok on my 2 round..We oso went to a exhibition called "ribley's amazing something" de..saw lots of weird and amazing exibits there.. Well, hope there will be more chances that we go traveling again..a very fun filled weeked..oh ya, i js loved the air con hotel room and the cooling weather there..haiz, now i'm back to my sanua room, i have thoughts of moving out of my house actualli,zzz...i kindna had enuf of the damm heat in my room.see how after i get a job..bler... Hmm..back to reality liao..zzz still waiting for LTA to call me..i think if i dont get that job i will go try do the "RO" job that ah beng recommended.pay seems quite well and office hr oso..tmr gonna start looking at jobstreet awhile b4 meeting gingy in the afternnon..alright shall end here le...
This is the only pic which we 5 took togather...lolz..
luvYellow;11:05 PM
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